Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Are you in a prison today? I'm in one right now and it is dark, dank, difficult. It is lonely, scary, seemingly neverending. It is testing my faith and trust in God's love for me. It is pushing me to the end of me. There is no one with me in this prison cell. Just me and my experiences with God. I am hoping, asking Jesus to break me free and yet He leaves me here!! And I see His mighty hand working diligently in the lives of the people around me and I want to be apart of it!! But I can't.
Last night in my utter brokeness I cried out to God. I told Him everything that my brain could make into words. And this morning God sent a messenger back to me with a word to read Psalm 77. It was just what I needed to hear. I find it interesting that God didn't put this passage on my heart, but instead he used my husband as His messenger... just like John. And that comforted my heart and confirmed in my heart that God is 100% aware of my prison. He knows how long I will be in it and the purposes for which He will accomplish from it. He has a set-in-stone-before-the-creation-of-the-world plan to use this prison to refine my heart and make me more like Jesus.
So precious friends, if and when you find yourself suddenly in a prison, don't fret. Call out to Jesus. And rest knowing that He has you where He has you on purpose. And even if the walls of your personal prison prevent you from seeing and hearing Jesus, know that He is there. Seek Him to know how you can become more like Him in the midst of the prison. Stay teachable and humble. And rejoice in the midst of your trial. God never leaves us or forsakes us.